tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-47430887145796055762024-03-12T19:59:53.582-07:00DLuvhall LoungeDLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.comBlogger29125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-21259170361030866142013-01-27T16:59:00.001-08:002013-01-27T16:59:52.774-08:00The Self LoatherThere seems to be a new phenomenon that I just can't seem to figure out. I've seen it on multiple social sites. And it's quite disturbing. I'm not sure what the clinical term for it is, but I call it Self Loathing. And I must admit, I don't like it.<br />
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This happens occasionally from the most common of folk. Now, I don't wanna sit here and name call, but it is what it is. Why do some people go to social sites and proclaim their loneliness? Is it a cry for sympathy, or are you truly looking for love? Or in some cases, lust. I know that relationships can be difficult, whether you're being discreet or very public. But it truly boggles my mind when I see people post about their lack of sex life. Or how they can't find a mate. I mean, are you presenting yourself as someone that would be wanted by another person? Are you willing to change what hasn't worked in order to make it work with someone else? Are you looking in the right places? I only ask because, I just wonder what do you plan to get out of your public cries about it. Some people have chosen to NOT be with anyone else until they're ready, and that's cool. But for the one's who are actually actively looking, I don't get it. I've tried to be quiet about it but, it happens so much that I've been forced to come back to blogging just to express my confusion. <br />
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I hate to engage in Twitter warfare or FaceBook post backs, because I usually don't get the answers that I'm looking for. That's not even the reason for this particular post. I just know that I can't be the only one who sees people posting about not getting sex and says "why not?" When you put up those posts, does it work? I just wanna understand the reasoning as to why it's done. No offense to whoever does it. I just don't get it...DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-68763357599662222072012-06-04T15:56:00.000-07:002012-06-04T16:06:00.905-07:00Pulse<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;">
<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">NO LOVE IS LIKE THE ONE THAT IS LOST<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I’VE SEEMED TO HAVE LOST THAT FEELING<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">EMOTIONS ARE AS CONTROLLABLE AS TIDAL WAVES<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL COME CRASHING DOWN<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU CAN LOVE & FEEL PLEASURE WITH EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT THE PAIN CAN ONLY BE FELT IN YOUR HEART<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">TODAY IS THE DAY I LOST THAT LOVE I ONCE LIVED FOR<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE WITHOUT IT<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT AS I SIT HERE, STILL CONSCIENCE OF MY SURROUNDINGS,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I REALIZE THAT LOVE CAN BE FOUND AGAIN<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">SEEMS LIKE IT CAN TAKE A LIFETIME TO CAPTURE THAT TRUE FEELING<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">AND A <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">NEW YORK</st1:place></st1:state> SECOND TO LOSE IT<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I GUESS I NEVER REALLY HAD LOVE<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">LOVE ALWAYS HAD ME<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THAT’S WHY I FELL IN IT<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I FEEL EMPTY WITHOUT IT<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT BETTER FOR IT<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THINGS I SEE EVERYDAY BRINGS TEARS TO MY EYES<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THE WAY I GET AT NIGGAS BRINGS EARS TO MY CRIES<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT PAIN CANNOT BE HEARD<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">FEELINGS MAKE NO SOUND<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">LOVE HAS A PULSE<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I DON’T<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THAT’S WHY THE LOVE THAT I SHOW WILL NEVER BE GREATER THAN THE LOVE I DON’T<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BECAUSE THAT’S THE LOVE I FEEL<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THE PULSE OF MY HEART<o:p></o:p></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-16943921118350604962012-02-20T18:58:00.000-08:002012-02-20T18:58:01.372-08:00Alone<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU DON’T KNOW ME, ALTHOUGH I FILLED YOUR BELLY FOR 9 MONTHS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">MY EMPTINESS FOR YOU WAS FILLED BY ANOTHER, WHOM I PROUDLY CALL MOTHER<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU WASN’T AROUND WHEN I HAD MY FIRST GIRLFRIEND<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO TELL ME THAT CALLIN’ HER “MY BITCH” WASN’T COOL<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO PREPARE ME FOR THE DOWNFALL WHEN SHE LEFT ME & I THOUGHT SHE WAS THE LAST ONE I WOULD LOVE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU DON’T KNOW ME, BUT YOU TELL EVERYONE HOW PROUD YOU ARE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">MY LIFE GOT OUT OF WACK FOR A MOMENT FOR UNJUSTIFIABLE REASONS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU WASN’T AROUND THE FIRST TIME I MADE LOVE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO TELL ME THAT SHE WOULDN’T LIKE IT JUST JAMMED IN<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO PREPARE ME FOR THAT MELODIC SENSATION THAT CURLED MY TOES & EXPLODED LIKE A WARM, SHAKEN PEPSI, NOT STIRRED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">BUT POPS WAS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU DON’T KNOW ME, EVEN THOUGH WE SEE EACH OTHER EVERY HOLIDAY & PASS AS FRIENDS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">THE PAIN EASED AS TIME PASSED FROM DAYS, TO MONTHS, TO YEARS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">YOU WASN’T AROUND WHEN I JOINED THE ARMY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO TELL ME THAT I WOULD BE FORCED TO GROW <st1:street w:st="on"><st1:address w:st="on">UP WAY</st1:address></st1:street> AHEAD OF SCHEDULE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO PREPARE ME FOR MANHOOD, WHEN ALL THAT WAS FUNNY WAS NO LONGER, & THE ADULTHOOD THAT I LONGED FOR COULD WAIT A LIL’ LONGER<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">SEE, YOU WISH YOU KNEW ME, SO YOU COULD SOLIDIFY THAT LIFE LONG DREAM OF SAYING YOU DID SOMETHING GOOD WITH YOUR LIFE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">I WASN’T AROUND TO WATCH YOU CRUMBLE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO TELL YOU THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME MENTALLY STRONGER<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">TO PREPARE YOU FOR THE FACT THAT <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">WE</i> DON’T EXIST, WE JUST KNOW EACH OTHER<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: "Verdana","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Arial Unicode MS";">ALONE<o:p></o:p></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-67866340821068076642012-02-20T18:53:00.001-08:002012-02-20T18:53:43.673-08:00MY HEART<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">NO LOVE IS LIKE THE ONE THAT IS LOST<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I’VE SEEMED TO HAVE LOST THAT FEELING<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">EMOTIONS ARE AS CONTROLLABLE AS TIDAL WAVES<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN IT WILL COME CRASHING DOWN<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU CAN LOVE & FEEL PLEASURE WITH EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT THE PAIN CAN ONLY BE FELT IN YOUR HEART<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">TODAY IS THE DAY I LOST THAT LOVE I ONCE LIVED FOR<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE WITHOUT IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT AS I SIT HERE, STILL CONSCIENCE OF MY SURROUNDINGS,<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I REALIZE THAT LOVE CAN BE FOUND AGAIN<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">SEEMS LIKE IT CAN TAKE A LIFETIME TO CAPTURE THAT TRUE FEELING<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">AND A <st1:state w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">NEW YORK</st1:place></st1:state> SECOND TO LOSE IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I GUESS I NEVER REALLY HAD LOVE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">LOVE ALWAYS HAD ME<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THAT’S WHY I FELL IN IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I FEEL EMPTY WITHOUT IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT BETTER FOR IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THINGS I SEE EVERYDAY BRINGS TEARS TO MY EYES<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THE WAY I GET AT NIGGAS BRINGS EARS TO MY CRIES<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT PAIN CANNOT BE HEARD<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">FEELINGS MAKE NO SOUND<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">LOVE HAS A PULSE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">I DON’T<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THAT’S WHY THE LOVE THAT I SHOW WILL NEVER BE GREATER THAN THE LOVE I DON’T<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">BECAUSE THAT’S THE LOVE I FEEL<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Monotype Corsiva"; font-size: 16pt;">THE PULSE OF MY HEART<o:p></o:p></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-74435438582089304852012-02-20T18:50:00.001-08:002012-02-20T18:50:55.448-08:00To Build And Destroy<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME LUST<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME ENVY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">I DON’T WANNA CHILL NO MO’<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME IGNORANCE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME HATRED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME GREED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">Y’ALL TRYIN’ TO KILL ME<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET AWAY FROM ME BACKSTABBERS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">STEP OFF LIARS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">BACK UP SNAKES AND RATS ALIKE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">I NEVER KNEW Y’ALL<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME LAZINESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME VANITY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GET OFF ME ANIMOSITY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">WORKING HAND AND HAND TO SEE ME FALL<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">I DON’T WANT THE COMPANY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">SPARE ME THE PAIN AND THE CONFUSION<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">GIVE ME THE LOVE AND I’LL BREAK YO’ CHAINS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THE COMPANY I KEEP IS PEACE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THE FOLKS I’M COOL WITH IS JOY AND LOVE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">TOGETHER WE GO AND CHECK OUT PROSPERITY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">ALL THE DECEIT AND SELFISHNESS IS BASED ON ENVIOUS GAIN<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND I DON’T NEED IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">I DON’T WANT IT AND I AIN’T HAVING IT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">I’M MOVING ON<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">LEAVING THE NEGATIVITY, WATCHIN’ IT BYTE THE DUST<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">WITH MY NEW CREW, WE’LL STAND AGAINST YOU<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">FACE TO FACE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND BATTLE TOE TO TOE UNTIL ONE IS SUBDUED AND TERMINATED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">EVERYDAY IF WE HAVE TO<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 16pt;">EVERY MINUTE IF NECESSARY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 20pt;">TO BUILD, WE MUST DESTROY!!!!<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-21717087825795684712012-02-20T18:44:00.000-08:002012-02-20T18:44:47.794-08:00When You Know What You Know:Props<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AN ATMOSPHERE OF ANIMOSITY AND TENSION IS CREATED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">WHEN YOU KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW AND PERFORM ACCORDINGLY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND DON’T RECEIVE YOU PROPS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU’RE CONSISTENT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND ON TIME<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND CROWN YOUR WORK WITH QUALITY, EFFECTIVENESS AND EFFICIENCY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">BUT STILL – NO PROPS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU’RE OVERLOOKED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND MANY TIMES LOOKED UPON AS A LAST RESORT<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">OR NO ONE ELSE IS AROUND<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">OR YOU’RE JUST CONVENIENT FOR THE TIME BEING<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">NONETHELESS THE PROBLEM IS SOLVED<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU’RE ONE OF THE HARDEST WORKERS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">KNOWLEDGEABLE AND UNDERSTANDING<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">WILLING TO ASSIST AND LEARN<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">LEADING AS APTLY AS YOU FOLLOW<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU DEMONSTRATE NO FAVORITISM<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU DON’T COMPLY WITH DISCRIMINATION<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU CONDONE NO SCHEMES<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">YOU COULD VERY WELL BE THE BACKBONE OF THE BODY<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THE CORNERSTONE OF THE BUILDING<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THE OXYGEN FOR THE LUNGS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">EVEN THE SMALLEST PART OF THE OPERATION BUT HANDLING ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT TASKS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THESE THINGS<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">THESE QUALITIES AND VIRTUES WON’T RECEIVE PROPS UNTIL THEY’RE GONE<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">UNTIL THEY ARE DISMISSED OR TERMINATED FROM THOSE WHO OVERLOOKED THEM<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">AND THERE’S NOTHING OR NO ONE TO TURN TO<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
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<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: "Impact","sans-serif"; font-size: 16pt;">WHEN YOU KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW AND PERFORM ACCORDINGLY, IT’S PROPS<o:p></o:p></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-36684695222326306252012-01-20T21:53:00.000-08:002012-01-20T21:53:15.939-08:00Endings to a new Beginning...I deserved better. And so did she. But sometimes, It's better to walk away. If we were meant to be, then we would have been. I allowed my walls to be breached. Trust is an earned virtue. That's what makes it so hard to swallow. Cuz my favorite past time has now passed it's time without as much of an unceremonious kiss on the frontal lobe. Every empire has it's downfall. I ignored my instincts and began to believe I could be loved. Not sure where Wonderland is, but I know how Alice felt. Slowly, I began to climb out of that "hold"...you know, the one that "held" my heart..."held" my attention.<br />
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Does the amount really matter? Time spent apart doesn't always cure the unknown entity reflected as lust. It may have started as a simple crush, but what has it grown to now? The end is now closer than the beginning. Sometimes it's better to say goodbye to the pain and the lies. <br />
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I can't continue down this path of destruction and self hate. Loving you has taken it's toll, for I have lost control of my relenting soul because our beautiful love is a story that may never be told. The corner has been turned, and I remember what my smile looks like. You may find yourself in a dark place, but that won't make you blind...It feels good to have my breath back again.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-59778321701065295852011-04-12T18:44:00.000-07:002011-04-12T18:44:48.349-07:00The cycle of LifeMany nights I sit alone and think, "am I living my life to the fullest?" The answer is no. However, I do plan on changing that fact. But how does one go about that? In some cases, it's as simple as walking away from toxic situations. In others, you have to face them head on. I could make excuses, but what would be the point of that? The "perfect" childhood escaped me, and I have had a tendency to use that as a crutch. But now that I'm a father, I actually use the pains that tortured me as a guide for what to/what not to do for my children. <br />
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When I tear away all my boundaries that keep me from letting people get close to me, I reflect on them. I want them to have tough skin, but I pray that they never have the bitterness that has driven me. By no means am I a perfect father, and even farther from being a perfect MAN. But I made a vow 8+ years ago to do whatever I had to do to provide parenthood the best way I could. There are things about me that they are too young to understand...why do I have earrings, tattoos, and drink "daddy" juice out of the cabinet...you know, typical adult-child relationship questions. I know that I can be hard on them. But, this world is gonna be much harder on them than I can ever be. And I want them to be as prepared for that as possible. I want them to feel comfortable talking to me about anything. Truth be told, considering they're both girls, that may be more uncomfortable for me than they can ever imagine. But I'd rather they hear things from me. I win all battles now, because of their ages. But there will come a time when I'll have to let them go. I can only hope that I provide them with enough tools to make a difference. That they can learn from my mistakes. And that they become better people than the person that I am. I don't say that to say I'm a terrible person, but if I can help them avoid some of my life pitfalls, then I know that I did an OK job. <br />
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You don't get time off as a parent. Single parents have it that much tougher. I know quite a few, and they are handling their business. This post is not a knock on people who don't have kids...it's simply an ode to the parents who are taking care of their kids, the best way THEY know how...DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-27501110829484216202011-03-29T20:09:00.001-07:002011-03-29T20:09:42.424-07:00Last Thoughts...<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">From the belly of the beast I was conceived, </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">And cat daddy you besta believe,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">That I’m gonna speak my mind to help you see…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">That the truth shall be told,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And no matter how it unfolds,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">My words shall be loud & bold…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">This life that I lead knows no end,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">But before I begin, </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Lemme remind you that you’ll still be my friend…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Just because I don’t agree with what you do,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Let’s just keep this between me & you,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">So that no one else has to get hurt when I’m through…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Read you your rights like the police,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">’Cause your mind seems to have a slow leak,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">With every word you utter, stutter or speak…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">All this info you want to resist,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">It’s not my fault you were born a Bitch,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Call yourself a man but really you want to switch hit…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Be the one you claim to be,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Don’t walk around mad at me,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">’Cuz your girl forgot what it’s like to be with a real G…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Following me around like "Cheaters",</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">I’m not the one who mistreats her,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Keep your shit at home then you won’t have to be the miss-leader…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Knowing that you’re the one that’s been creepin,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">You opened the window to allow me to peep in,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">And although I’ve been tempted, I never put my P-in…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">You know exactly what I’m getting at,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Even though both of us are black,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Your high-yellow complex still makes me think that…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Maybe disrespect is in order,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">You did cross the border,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">And got the nerve to wonder with the way you ignore her…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Why is she still calling me?</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">I’m not even ballin’ B,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">But I found your lil’ threats a bit appallin’ you see…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">But don’t worry, that’s not my style,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">I’m all grown up now though I used to be wild,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Besides, you have nothing to worry about; she has your child…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">So be there like the man you say you are,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">And know that I’ll never be far,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">In her eyes I’ll always be a shining star…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">The first one that made her feel like a lady,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">The first one that drove her crazy,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">The reason why she won’t settle for lazy…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">But that day is long gone,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Don’t get me wrong,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">I was a man who once sang that sad song…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">The one where I was wrong but claimed to be right,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">The one where I put up a fight,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">When I claimed that I wanted to come home last night…</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">So remember to treat your lady a lil better,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">Even though when she sees me it still gets wetter,</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Georgia;">And truth be told, if I wanted her, I WOULD come get her!</span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-70838416615349554942011-03-29T20:05:00.001-07:002011-03-29T20:05:49.779-07:00Take Me There<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to church, for I have been sinning</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to the track, for I have been winning</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to Africa so I can feel the energy</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to a Voodoo doctor to see the struggle within me</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to N.O. cuz I'm hot like Cajun</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to the streets cuz war I be wagin</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to jail, for I committed a crime</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me at face value & miss the sublime</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to the runway to show these cats sum style</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to see my Grandma cuz I haven't seen her in a while</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to school, for I need a lesson</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to talk to the youth, for they need this lyrical blessin</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to your parents, cuz I'm what you've been missin</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me to your heart, I'm sure it will listen</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>Take me for a joke & get knocked the hell out</em></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: Calibri; font-size: xx-small;"><em>TAKE ME…That's what I'm talkin bout</em></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-73611916120395457452011-03-29T20:02:00.001-07:002011-03-29T20:02:45.123-07:00I Am Darkness<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">A <st1:time hour="0" minute="0" w:st="on">MIDNIGHT</st1:time> SPIRIT MOVING THRU YOUR INNER-TURBULENT SOUL<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">YOUR RADIENCE ATTEMPTS TO SPARKLE THRU A SHADOW THAT I CAN’T CAST<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR I AM DARKNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">IN YOUR DREAMS YOU FEAR ME, NOT KNOWING WHERE I BEGIN, CAN’T FATHOM WHERE I END<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">INFINITE LIKE FIGURE 8 THERE’S NO ESCAPE<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR I AM DARKNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">YOUR BEAUTY WANTS TO SURROUND ME, FEELING AS THOUGH I CAN’T EXIST WITHOUT LIGHT,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">MY WORLD EXUDES THAT FIRE, DEEPLY YOU FEEL ME BUT CAN’T UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN’T SEE ME<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR I AM DARKNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">NOW YOU FEEL ME, FAILING TO PAY YOUR LIGHT BILL SO YOU CAN SEE ME, BUT YOU CAN’T.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">I EXIST IN A WORLD OF PAIN & STRUGGLE, HIDING YOUR SORROWS TO BRING YOU PLEASURE,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR I AM DARKNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">YOU SWEAT FROM THE THOUGHT OF MY BEING, PRAYING FOR A TOUCH YOU CAN’T HAVE,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">A RABBIT HOLE CAN’T GET MUCH DEEPER THAN THE THRESH-HOLD ON THIS BLACKNESS THAT I POSSESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR I AM DARKNESS<o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">I CAN FILL A ROOM AT A MOMENT’S NOTICE,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE YOU SAW WHAT YOU BELIEVED WAS ME, BUT <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">HE</b> GAVE YOU LIGHT,<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">FOR <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">HE</b> IS THE LIGHT, AND MY DARKNESS WILL FOREVER GIVE WAY TO <b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">HIS</b> LIGHT<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;"><o:p></o:p></span></div><div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 0pt; text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: ’Batang’,’serif’; font-size: 16pt; mso-bidi-font-family: ’Arial Unicode MS’;">TAKE YOUR TIME WITH IT….<o:p></o:p></span></div>DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-79978954698476932152011-03-29T20:00:00.000-07:002011-03-29T20:00:09.952-07:00Throbs 4 The InstructressLet the throbs commence, and everything else, while my words upon your body rest.<br />
Let this ink calm your thirst, and everything else, while reason glorifies the flesh.<br />
In the wind we'll find a ledge, and everything else, while memories digress.<br />
Let my soul be the surge, and everything else, while incantations converse.<br />
I shall assume your scent, and everything else, while the thicket overwhelms the pen.<br />
Only you can be the zest, and everything else, well beyond caress.<br />
Let me into the depths, and everything else, so as to proclaim our stealth.<br />
And if you deny your breast, and everything else, Let my gradual return to earth profess.<br />
In non-words fallen deaf, and everything else, how poets often squander their verse.<br />
Follow your other self, and everything else, all for the love of love within the spell.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-21003158344955666082011-03-29T19:58:00.001-07:002011-03-29T19:58:25.807-07:00Verbal IntercourseTouch yourself, ever so gently<br />
I know you've never done this, but I'm a pro<br />
That's why I'm here, to help you<br />
If I do it to you, it'll be way too easy<br />
Momentarily hesitant from my evervesance<br />
Your worse fears become your greatest pleasures as you begin to grind to yourself girl, wind it girl<br />
Why you shivering? I'm turning the heat up with every tone of my Verbal Intercourse<br />
I thought you liked it hot? I thought you could drop it like it's hot?<br />
You sweatin' from all the Hypnotiq?<br />
Or is it the Hypnotiq spell I cast in your dreams when your toes curl?<br />
Sweatin' your so called perm out & make you all natural<br />
Your man don't do it like this huh?<br />
Fuck your man slim.<br />
'Cause unlike him, I don't make love for minutes<br />
I make love for days. To have my fingertips lace your chocolate skin would lead the law to the one that killed you softly.<br />
That's why I want you to do it.<br />
They haven't quite figured out how to trace my voice yet<br />
I'm just like Morpheus. And you are my Neo, you're the One. The one to complete my Matrix.<br />
So before we go any further, I need you to take this red pill<br />
Don't worry Ma, it's better then birth control<br />
This is the pill that will birth your soul<br />
My tongue lashing tastes of sweet nectar<br />
To quench your thirst, to purge your----<br />
Wait a minute-------<br />
You hear that? <span style="font-size: xx-small;">You hear me cumin'?</span> <span style="font-size: xx-small;">You feel it boiling from the bottom?</span><br />
<span style="font-size: xx-small;">Ah.........Ahhh......</span>AAHHHHH.....<br />
That was it baby. Aiight. Take care love. Talk to you tomorrow. Bye......DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-57388908150503207582011-03-29T19:55:00.001-07:002011-03-29T19:55:58.158-07:00Parallel LinesIf you draw 2 Parallel Lines, they will never intersect.<br />
So what made you think that you would ever cross me?<br />
I don't attand church every Sunday, but what law says that Sunday is the only day I can praise?<br />
Just because I'm not a Bible toting, scripture quoating man, does that make you betta than me?<br />
You see, my relationship with <strong><em>GOD</em></strong> is a personal one.<br />
I praise <strong><em>HIM</em></strong> every wake up call, every breath I breathe, every meal I eat.<br />
What makes you the standard in which my spiritual self can exist?<br />
You mean to tell me you never cheated in school to pass a test?<br />
I'm not condoning this, but <strong><em>HE</em></strong> gave me permission to study on my own time.<br />
I don't speak in the unknown tongue, for <strong><em>HE</em></strong> gave me the gift of english.<br />
But <strong><em>HE</em></strong> speaks back thru my inner-psyche.<br />
Now you ask yourself, "Who is this nigga?"<br />
"I totally misjudged him!"<br />
But who gave you the right to judge me?<br />
We live in a world full of sin, man made sin.<br />
But because you do what you do in the dark & go out of your way to shed light on my life, that makes your relationship with <strong><em>HIM</em></strong> better then mine?<br />
Mortals can't lead you to the Promised Land.<br />
Scratch that, mortals can't lead ME.<br />
I'm not really sure what drives you.<br />
In that cold place that you call your GOOD heart, you're only fooling yourself.<br />
You see, it's not important whether or not I see it, 'cause <strong><em>HE</em></strong> sees all.<br />
So go ahead, tell everyone what you did Sunday at <strong><em>HIS</em></strong> house.<br />
Tell everyone your judgement of me.<br />
For <strong><em>HE</em></strong> made us both of flesh.<br />
Of the same cloth.<br />
So you see, we ARE 2 Parallel Lines that will never cross.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-21167196874433854112011-03-29T19:53:00.001-07:002011-03-29T19:53:22.506-07:00Just For The Fuck Of It...An unnecessary emptiness. How is it that love can sparkle in your eye, but U can't see the light?<br />
He was just a boy when he hurt you, yet you carry that torch like an Olympic gold medalist.<br />
Must I recompense your sorrows? Would you allow me the pleasure?<br />
I work on my craft like no other that has laced your presence, I'm grown with this.<br />
Now, if you lookin' for that teenage love then I'll find Slick Rick for ya. That's the only assistance that I can provide.<br />
I mean, wasn't he the one that hurt you in the first place?<br />
I'm failing all of your "love tests" 'cause you give them like pop quizzes. But this nigga is a valedictorian 'cause you gave him all the answers.<br />
I don't get it. "I need a man, not a boy" is all I ever hear youi screamin.<br />
You want me to be your man on the side while you maintain your relationship with your "Boyriend".<br />
You don't want me to love;you just want me to love you. So when he drags you back into that miserable domain that is his existence, you can easily go back 'cause "We just fuckin' right? I mean, I love him & he's gonna get his shit 2gether."<br />
I know. And even though it hurts, I don't put up a fight to stop U. And I'll tell myself that "I'm not takin' her ass back any more!" Just when I get U off my mind, you'll find me with a ring.<br />
"Whatcha doin?" "Writin." "Want some company?" "Sure."<br />
I try to be cool, hard even. 'Cause I'm grown. And I know that lil' boy has hurt you again. As soon as U walk through the door, BAM, we go at it. Now I'm cryin on the outside, and I'm dyin on the inside 'cause I love you.<br />
But you don't want me to love;U just want me to love U. Now as our bodies intertwine into a savage dance of lust, you scream out with all your heart "OH RON!"<br />
I keep going. Even though I'm Derrick. 'Cause we're just just fuckin, right? Boys cry. Men lie. So I must finally be leaving that day care center. Because my lying about my love for U has led to me crying for you love for me that I can never have.<br />
Because you love boys. And I'm your man........Just for the fuck of it......DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-28371086011512724322011-03-29T19:43:00.001-07:002011-03-29T19:43:27.762-07:00Sheet Talk..."Say yes" like those chicks from Floetry<br />
Whisper in your ear to let you know it's me<br />
Girl you got me "Feenin" like Jodeci...<br />
Keep your spot hot cuz of how I talk<br />
Got you curious cuz of how I walk<br />
Make you feel like you wanna lick my beanstalk...<br />
Cummin on strong cuz I'm a sexual being<br />
Caress your heart now luv you believe in<br />
Look deeply into my eyes so you can see in...<br />
Into a world where you heart pounds like tick-tock<br />
As comfortable as pedicured toes inside of flip flops<br />
Where you climb on top so that I can taste every drip...drop...<br />
Size doesn't matter cuz I'm pounding your intellect<br />
Didn't know just from talking I could get your panties wet<br />
"Make it last forever" like you're listening to Keith Sweat...<br />
Hittin it from the back til we both fall<br />
Feelin like a baby cuz now you wanna crawl<br />
Never felt a D cum so hard in your Luv...Hall...<br />
Flicker my tongue fast and slow<br />
Lick your body from head to toe<br />
DAMN you taste good make a brotha want mo' & mo'...<br />
Used to think I was a freak just because of my sign<br />
I told you in the beginning I would take my time<br />
Tattooed my chocolate name on your butterscotch spine...<br />
<span> </span>I luv the taste of your sun-dried flesh<br />
From now on you don't have to settle for less<br />
Cuz when it comes to this sheet talk, baby, you're rockin with the best...DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-15026740154055894472011-03-16T17:25:00.000-07:002011-03-16T17:25:57.263-07:00RememberanceBehind your heart lies a soul that only you know. Letting anyone in can be dangerous, but that's the only way you know how to love. You search for a feeling of desire, only to find heartache.<br />
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"Seasons change, people don't!" That's what you've lived by. But as the leaves fall & the wind changes, you have a new found happiness. Silly giggles fill every conversation as you forgot about past pains. You're remembering love, and all it's wondrous splendor.<br />
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Old habits become new discoveries, long days turn into short nights. You've waited for this moment for what feels like an eternity, now you're dazed by passion.<br />
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Her scent fills your every breath. The warmth of his body caresses you thru the night. Love is no longer a fear. Now is it an option. Your heart has opened up & your soul is dancing.<br />
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But there is no music. Only the pounding of your heart when you hear their voice. And as you take a deeper look, their soul is dancing with yours. And at that moment, you remember, Love.....DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-38584859101232161762011-01-26T16:44:00.001-08:002011-01-26T16:44:10.673-08:00Where have I been?The number 1 question on most peoples minds have been just that. Well, I've been taking time to reflect of life, as I know it. You know how you have a plan, and it just doesn't go the way you expect it? How to react to that is exactly what I've been dealing with. I forgot how important I am to ME. The best lessons are the ones that you learn thru failure. My career path is not the one that I'm supposed to be on. However, I haven't taken the proper strides to get to where I truly belong. I've stalled at the gates, if you will. I do feel good about the fact that I have gotten more focused on my poetry book, that I WILL complete. But that's another story.<br />
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No matter what you do, if you put forth half-ass efforts you will always get half-ass results. I think back to the days where I would get angry at the drop of a hat, and it was nothing for me to explode on whoever was around. I took a stance & decided to change that aspect of my life. You've heard me say time and time again that I stick to myself. However, during that process I would think of/and do nothing. I just felt like, in due time this will pass. This time, I decided to be more open to changing that. Maybe I didn't talk about what was really in my head, but I did talk. I still read. And I still wrote. I even mustered up the strength to do some research on what my true profession should and will be. I'm not supposed to be verifying whether or not cables and poles are placed correctly in a database...I'm supposed to be a Sports Agent. When I began that journey, I was wide open. I wouldn't even allow the thought of failure to enter my mind. But, such as life, I reached a point where I had to take a break from my classes and thus, lost momentum. There are a few people who actually knows about this desire. However, no one ever thought to ask me when I was hopping back on that train. But leave it to my father to jump right in, feet first, and remind me of all my aspirations that I had. That I have. Sure, the economy has had somewhat of an effect on how I've approached this goal. But that excuse can no longer be my crutch. If that's what I want to do, then I need to get back on that horse and ride it into the sunset. How dare I try to inspire my kids to reach for the stars when I'm still sitting here not doing the same. That won't be the case anymore.<br />
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So, where have I been you ask? Well, I've been right here all along. I'm never going away. Just refocused. I may not be the man that I want to be, but I'm a better man than I was yesterday. And I strive to be a better man tomorrow. I live for you...I do for you...but I can only be me...here is where I'll always be.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-8398383750112354472010-10-31T17:47:00.000-07:002010-10-31T17:47:50.955-07:00Only the strongPride can be a beast. I recently encountered my own spell. Being locked up in the house for about a week can really work the mind. And of course, due to my stubborness, I decided to keep my issues to myself. Well, my head has been hurting since Tuesday. I still can't seem to put a finger on why it happened, but it did. And as I write this blog, I still feel a little woosy. I haven't been eating, reading, writing, or going to the gym. I tried to stay away from work, but then I gave it a go on Thursday and paid the price. Even going to the Bobcat game didn't seem to help. <br />
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I don't know how to reach out sometimes and say that I need "help". My pride won't let me. I usually know what's causing my issues, but this time was different. And while I've tried to figure it out, I resorted to my usual stance of going at it on my own. I won't get too deep into why, but Saturday I started to turn it around. Asking for assistance isn't a bad thing. It's just not something that I'm accustomed to doing. It always feel like I'm placing my burdens on someone else's shoulders. That's not my purpose in life. That's not why I'm here. I try to provide the strength that others need. How can I do that when I'm not at full strength? And because of my pride, how would you know when I'm not? I hear it all..."you can't be there for everybody...you're human too...you let things consume you..." And as much as I hate to admit it, those people who tell me that are right (don't tell them I said that). <br />
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I'm still the same soldier that I've always been. Just had a little chink in my armor. But I'm not going anywhere. I'll distance myself from everyone from time to time. But that doesn't mean that I've jumped ship. I just need to recharge my batteries. I just need to catch my breath. Because of that, I continue to carry my pride like a championship banner. I just wish that it would allow me to allow you in sometimes...Still growing everyday. DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-23999004463465493662010-10-11T17:38:00.001-07:002012-03-21T08:01:56.034-07:00Never stop (Exotic Short)You lovin my style just like I'm lovin your smile/got you contemplating cuz you aint had my love in a while<br />
Touch the spot I know that you like/take a nibble although you like when I bite<br />
Got you smitten from the stroke of your kitten/never forgetten you diggin me cuz it was written<br />
This is some grown shit, forget the daycare/touch my own shit, you know that I play fair<br />
Tokin you up, smokin you up/we keep it hot girl, you know I love soakin you up<br />
Calming my soul - you move me, always consumes me<br />
Your innocence is precious, continues to rule me<br />
Take my hand, guide it to your cherry blossom/kissin and & lickin til I reach the very bottom<br />
They say I'm a freak, but you see the truth/I'm just a cat that has a strong sweet tooth<br />
So when you feel that urge in the middle of the night/look me up cuz you know I be keepin it tight/keepin it write...DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-10581181685226916662010-09-19T19:05:00.000-07:002010-09-19T19:05:10.279-07:00Lend me your earSometimes I sit in this chair and have the craziest thoughts. The most recent of these thoughts have been about my patience. It really boggles my mind when I try to put it in perspective. But the fact of the matter is, it's always been there. When I was in high school, I was in a program called Teen Institute. It was a drug and alcohol prevention/peer group. Now, I know that you see me now and think to yourself "as much as you drink, that's impossible". But remember, that was high school. Things are a lot different now. Anyway, that program taught me many lessons on life that I didn't appreciate until my early adult years. It helped me realize that when someone needs to talk, you should be there for them. We were told to never ask, just listen. Never advise, just listen. Sometimes, people just want to vent. They don't really need to hear what you would do, or how you would handle it. They just need someone to listen to them. And in order to do that, you need to display patience. They may not want to talk at the moment that you are there, so you have to be there whenever they need you. That's what I try to do. <br />
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Something that I find even more strange about this is, if you hung around my crew, you would not see me at the one that does that. Lemme explain. I'm gonna break my crew down and you tell me what you think. Wood - the indecisive "wanna be at the scene" cat that doesn't wanna spend any loot to make it happen. Cleazy - the intelligent "wanna be thug" that always gets shit for the party that nobody can explain. CoCo - Mr Get To The Point is a ladies man, if you want that man to tell you exactly what he's gonna do to you if provided the chance. K.Dot - this is the "ultimate" listener who has so many friends that he actually forgets how he knows them. Me & Zeek - we are considered the "assholes" of our crew. Every crew has at least one. We're notorious for shutting down the entire operation just because we don't like dealing with too many people. We're the ones that scream, cuz and fuss. When the ball drops, we don't care who's going for it. We're gonna get it at all costs. And if you don't like it, so what! However, I can tell you right now that when we see someone who needs to vent, we're the first ones to be there. If we need to make a trip down the road to be there, then we're there. We don't lend money if you need it. We give it. But we do it on the low. We don't broadcast it. That's not to say that the rest of the crew doesn't provide, but we're the anchors. When people see that we don't show up to events, they automatically assume that we're not there because D & Zeek shut it down. We let it ride cuz we don't care to save face. But if you need anything, we're there. No questions asked.<br />
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Don't let our bravado make you think that you can't come to us. We are assholes, but we know how to listen. We know how to care. We just do wear it on our sleeves. We'll listen, free of judgement. DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-10198816897217056822010-09-15T19:37:00.000-07:002010-09-15T19:37:32.205-07:00Chocolate Covered (Exotic)Your elegance is astounding. When in your arms, I feel a sense or urgency to give in to your every desire. Instead, I hold you closer to me. My heart beats to a rhythm that only we can enjoy. And we dance our own little dance. Inter-twining souls. You've touched me in ways that I never imagined I could be touched. And in your eyes, I am right where I want to be. Lost in you. Nothing about us is normal, and that's the most beautiful part of our relationship. We make love without having sex. Never expected your heart to be caressed and cared for in the manner that I provide. To the point that it's down right frightening. But we travel down this path together, and we know that nothing else matters. In an instant, we convene to the moment that brings us both to our knees. For I have longed to taste your chocolate skin for what seem like an eternity. And it's everything that a man can dream of. You rub and grab my head, just the way I like it. Deep moans from you only make me want to please you more. The grip of your thighs tighten, as you have wanted me to taste you as badly as I wanted to oblige. I take in all that you have to offer, and even beg for what you don't. You give in to DLuvhall, and nothing pleases me more. I take a moment to look into your eyes, and you beg me to continue. Even if I wanted to, there's no way that I would stop now. I want you to feel the ultimate...which is why I slowly press my lips to yours. My tongue travels in small but decisive circles as your eyes roll into your head, feeling desire that has only been written about. Orgasmic eruption, for we have reached our mountaintop of climatic exploits. I thank you for my chocolate fix, and you simply wink and tell me "anytime"...my ultimate sweet tooth fix.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-6249504110170506282010-09-15T18:59:00.000-07:002010-09-15T18:59:36.884-07:00I don't wanna listen...I tend to write when things are going a lil sideways. When they are, sometimes the best solution for me is to ignore it and move forward. That's what a lot of my life has been about...forward movement. It's a daily struggle. There are times when the best solution is to walk away, but I can't seem to make that move. But when I do, I never look back. In my wake, I have left some sour situations. Some could have been worked out, others not so much. And even though it hurts at the time, I am able to reflect on those moments and grow. When you're as guarded as I am, giving can be a task all in itself. However, I do. However, there are 2 sides to that coin. On the one hand, I must ultimately trust and respect you in order for me to give in. But then, if I walk away it can make me cold. Bitter even. But, because I don't like to hurt loved ones, you may never know it. This brief blog is only being written because as of this moment, I am living in a state of confusion. And I don't like it. This liq will only subside the distress that I am well schooled in hiding. I don't smile much, so the average cat never knows what's going through my demented mind. And because those who I am closest to doesn't see me on a regular, they can only speculate if there's something truly going on or am I just in one of my many moods. I'm notorious for staying "in my lane" because I always work on things at my own pace. At the same time, sometimes I just have a quick thought that burns my soul, and I get over it in a matter of minutes...ok, a matter of hours. But that's mainly because I find peace in solitude. I go to the park, or the book store, or simply take a drive to clear my head. And when those things don't work as well as they should, I go to Best Buy or have a glass of one of my favorite spirits (you can laugh now). When I wake up in the morning, this will be a blip on my map of life. A rant of complete and utter nothingness. But right now, it's soothing.DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-9192413920488668602010-09-05T17:18:00.000-07:002010-09-05T17:18:17.038-07:00Speak easy...If there's one thing that I know about myself, it's that I have gotten better over the years when it comes to communication. There was a time when I thought I only needed to argue to get my point across. Well, times have changed and so have I. People may not agree with how I've started to deal with issues, but it works for me. The art of silence...<br />
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Arguments usually lead to something being said that in a normal circumstance would not be said. Sometimes, when we're hurting all we think about doing is hurting that person that has caused us pain. I was notorious for being an asshole at the sake of hurting others. But I see life in a much different light. I tend to internalize issues. In my mind, at least I'm not hurting anyone else. And when I do decide to speak on things, I tread quietly. Softly, if you will. I don't wanna cause any waves, because I know what "could" happen if I do. Just because I don't like to argue anymore doesn't mean that I won't. It's one of those things that I now see as "corny". Even in disagreement, people should be able to talk to each other in a rational sense. The mind has a funny way of operating. You may think you have things under control, but sometimes that mind of yours can drift to a place that you never knew existed. And when it does, that's when you find out who you are. How you handle things normally describes your character. <br />
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I'll be the first to admit, my mind drifts quite often. And when it does, I tend to think of the worse case scenarios. That way I won't be surprised if it materializes. I also do this so that when/if there ever becomes a time when things needs to be discussed, I can maintain my cool. You'd be amazed at how much can be accomplished when you can just talk. It's when you CAN'T talk that leads to disaster. When I first decided that yelling was not the way, I used to have a notebook to scribe all my issues. Those scribes turned into poems. That was my outlet. That IS my outlet. When I can't talk about it, I write about it. Since I've started this blog, I've opened up to some things that no one knew about me. Here's another "confession"...I have thrown away more poems than I have in my collection. The ones that are gone were only for that moment. I write it, read it a week later, then tear it up. If I could make you understand why I do that, I would be glad to. All I can tell you is, it's therapeutic. I've been asked to write for funerals, weddings, anniversaries, you name it. And in doing so, I learned to communicate on a whole new level. I can say the words, and I can show the actions. They seemed to mean more when I wrote them. In that regard, I felt like it would be better to also put my anger/rage into writing. The writing has really opened the door to understanding that I can "talk" loud and "say" nothing. It may be corny to you, but this is my way of working things out. DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4743088714579605576.post-1982262930982840562010-08-25T18:34:00.000-07:002010-08-25T18:34:33.300-07:00Why?This is always the question that is asked when things don't go your way. By no means do I claim to be perfect, but there are things that I try to control and they just don't seem to work out. I juggle my insanity with 3 balls of hope. I tend to believe in people more than they believe in themselves. Maybe it's because I believe that I can make everything alright. Maybe it's because I've seen the worst in people and I know that everyone is not like that. I live in darkness, but it's mostly by choice. I've been called evil, yet those close to me know that is not the case. I'm not going to sit here and claim to be the best person on the planet, but I strive to be a great friend. Why? Because I believe that's what I was put here for. <br />
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What makes you mad might make me laugh. I can't explain that one. But one thing that I've learned is that everything is not meant to be explained. In some cases, I search for it anyway. But to no avail. When things are spinning out of control, sometimes it's just best to let it ride it's way out. The roller coaster of life has peaks and valleys. The ride can be fun at times. But there are also moments when it can scare the living shit out of you. How you handle that can and will define you. Adversity has always taught me a lesson. I may not have liked all of them, but I learned none the less. Why? Because we all serve a different purpose.<br />
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You can wander through a world of infinite sorrow, but everyone sees the sun from time to time. How else can you explain that shadow that you cast over your aches and pains? When you can see a smile in the darkest of moments, there isn't always a why...just a thank you. And that's when you know that you've done something meaningful. That's the answer to "why do I feel this way"...And at that moment, you never wonder why again...DLuvhallhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02359123642494376544noreply@blogger.com1